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10
It was a quiet spring day in Washington, D.C. The
parks were busy but not yet crowded with the throngs of summer tourists. At
the Vietnam Veterans Memorial, the people in front of the Wall moved very
slowly, if at all. When they spoke, it was in hushed, almost reverent tones,
like tourists at a religious monument. The top of the Wall is at ground level;
the panels are highest in the center and taper down as they approach each end.
This causes the observer to walk down below ground level and then back up again
at the other end.
The Wall is made of a deep, black polished granite
that reflects the figures standing and kneeling in front of it. The reflections
become background to the names engraved in the granite. There are objects on
the ground leaning against the Wall—flowers here, small American flags there,
letters, a figurine, an old camouflage shirt, a framed citation, and photographs.
People reach out and touch the Wall, gingerly tracing a name with their
fingertips. At one point, a man holds up a small boy so that he may touch a
name; at another point, a teenager steadies a piece of paper while another teen
rubs the side of a pencil against it to obtain a copy of the name underneath.
To the right of center, a couple with two preteen
children are studying the names. The father draws his finger down a section,
row by row. After a few moments, he turns and nods to his daughter, and she
places a wicker basket in front of the Wall. Her mother then nods to the boy,
who bends down and drops a letter and several photos into the basket. The
father steps back to watch, and the mother takes his hand. The little boy
stands and surveys his work, then glances up at his parents. The father
releases the mother's hand and renders a brief salute. They all stand quietly a
moment longer, then they turn to their right and walk slowly down the walkway.
If you've never been to the Vietnam Veterans
Memorial, the above scene may sound a little unreal. It's not. The memorial is
a very spiritual place, and a lot of healing takes place there. I am
particularly familiar with it, but there are many such places of healing.
Societies build memorials in an effort to heal from social traumas—whether for
thousands lost in a war or for one who meant so much to many, such as the
memorial to John Kennedy at the point where he was shot in front of the Texas
School Book Depository. We often memorialize the location of a trauma; if we
don't know the actual location, then we "memorialize" one designated
to represent the trauma.
We imbue the memorial with the significance of the
trauma, and it takes on the power to evoke many of our feelings about the
trauma. In effect, the location of the memorial—a grave, a religious structure,
a monument—becomes sacred to us. In our minds, it takes on a very specific
meaning, dedicated to one purpose. When others disregard the special meaning
we've assigned a location, we can be terribly offended—an example is the
sensitivity of the New York firemen about the site of the World Trade Center
disaster. They lost nearly 400 comrades at that site; it is now sacred to the
individuals who survived that event and probably will remain a sacred location
for many future generations. For all of us, it is a reminder of the
selflessness and courage of those who risk their lives to rescue others.
It helps the grieving process if we have a specific
place to focus our grief and an opportunity to share it with others. We build
churches and temples in order to pray together, and many people designate
corners of their homes for spiritual purposes. These tangible places help us to
enter domains of feeling that aren't easy to experience. We're able to experience
them when we have the stimulus of going together to a funeral or laying a
headstone. Much of the communication at such times is nonverbal—a hug, a pat, a
squeeze, a handshake, or a caring look. Rituals prescribe some of the verbal
communication, so we have a lot of help in expressing difficult feelings.
When Richard died in an auto accident, he left a
wife and three children. His wife, Gloria, was very busy the day of the
funeral, arranging for the family to entertain a large number of visitors
afterward. A number of friends helped out by bringing food and picking up out‑of‑town
relatives who flew in for the service. Her three children also busily helped
with the preparations. At the service, Gloria was escorted to her seat by her
son Philip, who was ten. The elder daughter, Melissa, who was twelve, had
written a poem, which was printed up and handed out at the door. And the
younger daughter, Mandy, seven, carried a rose up and laid it on her father's
coffin before the service began.
When people "paid their respects" and
visited after the service, considerable food and refreshments awaited them.
Each guest waited his or her turn to speak to Gloria and "offer their
condolences." Almost all these people shook her hand, but more often they
held her hand in both of theirs and/or hugged her. It was usually during the
hugs that Gloria would tear up and cry for a moment. Most of these people also
spoke to the children. Several times, a number of people gathered and talked
about what a fine person Richard had been. More than once, there was laughter
as the conversation focused on humorous memories of Richard. Upon leaving, a
number of people commented to Gloria that they would be seeing her again soon.
Several families made plans to do something with Melissa, Philip, and Mandy
within the coming week.
As you can see, many ritualized behaviors
accompanied this funeral. The rituals weren't limited to the service itself;
indeed, most of them occurred outside the actual ceremony. But from beginning
to end, from the clothes worn to the food eaten, the day was full of rituals.
Without them, that large number of people would not have known what to do.
There would never have been such an opportunity for so many people to
explicitly express their caring to this family. Rituals provided a structure
for the healing that took place between these people.
Rituals are activities that serve the same function as memorials. They facilitate the processing of difficult feelings; they allow us to experience those feelings and consider the meanings of emotional issues while reducing our anxiety over what to say and do. I consider rituals to be a major element in healing from trauma. Although healing rituals often take place at established memorials, they aren't limited to them. Just as any place can be memorialized, rituals can be adapted to fit any situation.
This chapter focuses on rituals that contribute to
the process of healing from traumatization, which means primarily those dealing
with loss, transition, and transformation. These rituals help us to
focus on selected powerful symbols; grieve the losses; relinquish life stages
and periods associated with the trauma; experience and express emotions related
to the trauma; and develop new ways of viewing ourselves.
Existing rituals for dealing with loss include
funerals and wakes. Those for dealing with transitions include graduations and
retirement dinners. And those for dealing with the transformation of a person
include fasting and baptism. But these existing rituals are not the only
healing rituals available to you. You can also create your own.
When
you create healing rituals, don't ignore those that already exist. Rather,
start by thinking about ways you can draw upon the power of existing rituals
and symbols and adapt them to your own healing process. Here are some of the
common aspects of effective healing rituals.
1. Healing Rituals Always Involve Symbolism
The power of symbols is that they can be used to represent intangibles. A gravestone represents the intangible thing that we call a loss. A little pin on the lapel of a jacket can represent membership in a group, such as Holocaust survivors or American citizens. Once you've imbued a particular thing with the power to symbolize an intangible, you can express feelings about that intangible through the way you treat the symbol. You can slip the ring on your spouse's finger happily, or you can angrily throw it on the floor, indicating very different feelings about your marital bond. Every effective healing ritual involves symbols.
In June 1986, 1 participated in a very powerful
public healing ritual—the Chicago Vietnam Veterans Welcome Home Parade. The
vets were all decked out in symbols of their service: jungle fatigues, hats,
boots, dog tags, medals, and other military insignia. Non-veterans walking in
the parade held pictures over their heads as symbols of the loved ones they
lost in the war. Bystanders waved flags and threw confetti from the windows to
symbolize their support. These people may not have been thinking of themselves
as using symbols, but they certainly were. As a result, the parade was a
powerful ritual.
If the ritual is to evoke feelings about a trauma,
the trauma must be symbolized as a part of the ritual. Some people actually
recreate the trauma, such as by the reenactment of Civil War battles. For
others, the symbol is a more passive reminder, such as the names on the Wall.
Sometimes people need to perform symbolic actions with the symbol of their
trauma. Rituals of burning and/or burying photos and drawings of a trauma can
be helpful in putting it behind.
When Pablo, Raul, and Manuel (whom we met in Chapter
7) were asked by their therapist to draw their impressions of what had happened
to their father, the therapist took each boy's drawing and locked it in his
desk. The drawings were not shown to other family members. Instead, they were
eventually burned in a ritual with the boys' mother Juanita and the therapist.
2. Prepare for the Ritual
The notion of preparing for the ritual is
important—in fact, it's really part of
the ritual. We build up to a ritual through a preparatory process that
contributes to its power to influence us. Holiday rituals often require several
days of preparation during which we decorate, cook and clean, and create
symbols for the ceremony. Going through this process gets us "in the
mood" and contributes to our ability to launch into the proper feelings at
the time of the ceremony. It's important that everyone play a part in this
preparatory process because doing so makes it much easier to experience the
sharing in an effective ritual. People who show up only for the ceremony may
not become integrated into the group or get as much out of the ritual. Parents
intuitively know to include children in the preparatory process for rituals.
Gloria's children prepared for their day of rituals in a number of ways: by
dressing appropriately, writing a poem, picking out the flowers, and practicing
walking down the aisle.
3. Everyone Must Be Involved
It's essential to include everyone in preparing for
a ritual and in enacting it. Rituals involve action, and everyone must feel
that he or she has a part to play in it. Even ordinary actions are understood
to mean something extraordinary for the purpose of the ritual. For example,
eating and drinking take on a very different meaning when they're performed in
the Communion ritual of a Christian church. And rituals involve feelings—we
feel something as a result of participating in the ritual. The feelings
associated with a trauma can run the gamut, so it's not only sadness that you
will see at a trauma healing ritual. Ever notice how people cry at weddings
and smile at funeral receptions? Both of those rituals allow for many different
feelings to be experienced. Furthermore, bear in mind that the ritual is for
everyone—not just the trauma survivor—and that everyone will have feelings
about the experience.
Joey's family's response to his fears about the fire
is an excellent example of getting everyone involved. The entire family came up
with ideas and planned the rituals of visiting the fire station, having fire
drills, and playing with toy fire engines. A therapist might do these kinds of
things with a child individually. But I believe a response like this by the
entire family has much more immediate impact than therapy sessions with a
stranger.
4. Choose the Setting for the Ritual
Locating the ritual at a site that is a reminder of
the trauma can evoke the trauma without any further symbols. This site could be
the place of the trauma or other locations that have been memorialized and
consequently dedicated to the trauma. The timing of the ritual can also create
an evocative setting; anniversaries of a trauma are times that we are
inevitably reminded of it. Getting together with other survivors of the trauma
establishes a similarly evocative setting. Whenever enough survivors get
together, they are likely to perform some ritual in honor of the trauma—if
nothing more, a toast to lost companions.
On the tenth anniversary of her traumatic abortion,
Dale returned to the site of the abortion clinic with her husband Ed. They went
back through all the same rooms and saw many details that had been
"invisible" to Dale the first time. Afterward, they went for a quiet
meal and talked about the feelings that surfaced as a result of their visit—a
visit made particularly powerful by its timing.
5. Rituals of Transformation Are Seldom Easy
Rituals of transformation serve to help people
change their image of themselves. But in order for a ritual to do this, you
must endow that ritual with a great deal of power, like the power you give to a
relationship when you allow it to matter to you. You become invested in it and
you put a lot of energy into it. If a relationship or a ritual requires no
effort on your part, you may take it for granted. But if you must invest
yourself in it and work at it, you place greater value on it. Some rituals of
transformation are physically grueling, such as the Outward Bound movement,
while others draw their power from an emotional investment, such as baptism.
Often you must prepare lavishly for the ceremonial part of the ritual, such as
a bar mitzvah.
I think that one of the best examples of
transformation rituals is the American Indian sweat lodge ceremony. It's a
ritual of purification, during which the participants enter a tent filled with
steam created by putting water on rocks that have been heated in a fire. It's a
grueling experience that requires a deep commitment and can involve several
days of preparation. It usually includes fasting and other forms of self‑denial
and can produce visions and altered states of consciousness. When it's over,
participants report their experiences as deeply meaningful and there's an
experience of having been changed.
6. The Need for Experts
Some healing rituals can be conducted with your own
family or friends. But most rituals of transformation are conducted by
established guides, such as a priest or a drill sergeant. Many transformation
rituals are too demanding to pursue without an established guide to help
you.
Colonel Bob Rheault is the innovative developer of a
ritual that is used by several VA hospitals' in‑patient stress units. He
takes groups of Vietnam veterans with PTSD on an Outward Bound experience,
climbing mountains and negotiating "confidence" courses on ropes
high in the air. After a few days on these trips, many of the veterans report
profound experiences of transformation. Similarly, Vietnam veterans have
participated in American Indian sweat lodge ceremonies and other rituals of purification.
Many find these to be profound experiences, helping them to stop thinking of
themselves as victims, thereby transforming their self-images.
The "guide" in these rituals is usually
someone who has already undergone the transformation and can be believed in.
Colonel Rheault was at one time commander of all Special Forces in Vietnam;
Indian experts were "guides" in the sweat lodge ceremonies. The
ritual may not have the same power if you don't think that the guide is
knowledgeable.
The implications of this requirement must be
considered as you develop your own healing rituals. If you're trying to develop
a ritual of transformation, it helps to include someone who is an authority on
the transformation. Of course, the "guide's" authority lies in the
perception of the participants. For example, some people feel properly married
if a judge performs the ceremony, while others require a clergyman.
7. Your
Family's Style
If you want to develop healing rituals to deal with
your family's traumatization, first consider the ways your family has dealt
with losses, transitions, and transformations. (And think about your family's
rules concerning the expression of emotion, which we discussed in Chapter 3.)
What is your unique role in the rituals? How does the nature of the ritual
change your role? Here are some questions that can help you get a picture of
your family's style:
Transitions and Celebrations
·
What
holidays do you actually celebrate (not just take off work)? Thinking about
holidays usually brings an instant image of your family's holiday rituals.
·
What
are the typical ways your family celebrates birthdays, achievements, and
transitions?
·
Do
such celebrations usually involve food, drink, and physical activities?
·
What
are the special places where you celebrate?
·
Who
is usually included?
·
Do
people sing, make speeches, give toasts, or tell stories?
·
What
role does each family member play? Is there a director, an audience, someone
who does the majority of crying for the family or expresses all the sentiments?
·
Does
your family have a cultural or ethnic tradition that determines how these
events are conducted?
Loss
·
How
does your family handle loss?
·
If
relatives have died, how were the ceremonies conducted?
·
Who
directed the ceremonial aspects of the ritual ‑family members or experts?
·
Is
it typical for everyone to talk about their feelings, or do some individuals
tend to speak on behalf of all?
·
What
"props" are usually involved‑flowers, photos, written speeches?
·
What
is your family's history of transformations? What are the pervasive stories
about momentous incidents in the lives of family members, particularly from
your parents' time and that of earlier generations?
·
Does
your family emphasize educational experiences, religious experiences, or other
worldly pursuits? Do your parents attribute their life choices to their belief
in God, graduation from college, military service, or what?
·
Are
there family stories about events that changed the lives of family members,
such as the summer Grandpa worked for the railroad or the time the family's
home burned? If so, can you identify the rituals that the family members
employed at the time?
Now that you have some sense of your family's
rituals for dealing with common losses, transitions, and transformations,
consider how these elements appear in more powerful family events—like trauma.
·
What
are the stories about past traumas your family has experienced?
·
What
were those traumas, and how were they handled?
·
Do
your parents identify the Depression or the war or some other major event as
particularly significant in determining who they are today? If so, how did
they (and their own families) respond to that event?
·
What
rituals did the family perform to overcome these historical traumas?
·
Might
these past traumas still be partly unresolved?
·
How
much does the current trauma resemble the past trauma? Is it stirring up old
wounds?
My goal is not to make you obsessively concerned
with how your family works. Rather, I want to increase your awareness that you
already have a family legacy of rituals, rules, and patterns for dealing with
loss, transition, transformation, and perhaps even traumatization. You have
some of these resources available to you now. Think about how these existing
resources, particularly the rituals, can be adapted to help you and your family
deal with the trauma that you're currently confronting.
Now I would like to talk about actually creating a
ritual for your family to deal with
its traumatization. Your ritual should include some elements from the rituals
you've developed for dealing with transition, transformation, and loss. All of
these are involved in overcoming the effects of traumatization. Designing and
conducting a ritual is something that you can all do together, whether you are
a traumatized individual or a family member of one. Begin by gathering the
tools that we've already discussed:
·
the
existing repertoire of rituals your family has used over the years;
·
the
elements of effective rituals (listed earlier); and
· the participation of everyone who is part of the family or other group that has been affected by the traumatization.
Your goal is to design rituals that address the
specific traumatization that has affected your family, and to gear those
rituals to the unique culture that is your family. The ritual you design will
be solely yours, reflecting the unique characteristics of your family, though
it may share many elements with the rituals of others.
It may be helpful to take a pencil and paper and
write down your answers to each of the following eight sets of questions.
Devote a full sheet of paper to each set, even if you answer only one or two
questions. Once you've gone through them all, pick and choose from each page to
design an appropriate ritual. Making written lists of the necessary elements
can aid in the difficult task of creating the ritual.
Remember, this task will be most effective if the
entire family is involved—the process of designing a family ritual can itself
be part of healing. Engaging in this process may bring to the surface some of
the conflicts and different perceptions among family members and give you an
opportunity to reach a better mutual understanding.
1. Specify the Trauma
What exactly has traumatized your family? It helps
to be precise here. Was there a specific trauma, a series of traumas, or a
stressful period? Was an individual traumatized, several individuals, or the
entire family? Did it involve people from outside the family? (You may want to
include certain outsiders in your healing rituals.)
Identifying the specific nature of the trauma will
be simple for many people, more complicated for others. But you should be able
to point your finger at an event or series of events that you feel caused the
trauma. If there are multiple traumas that do not cluster easily, you may need
to break them down into separate traumas.
2. Specify Who Was Affected
by the Trauma and How
Everyone was affected by the traumatization in some
fashion, but it can be helpful to sit down and think about exactly how each
family member was affected. Do some members feel unsafe, or lack trust in
strangers (or in other family members)? Do they lack hopefulness about the
future and illusions of security? Do they feel guilty or enraged, or simply
feel stuck in the past? What particular issues has traumatization induced in
each individual family member? As you identify these issues, think about what
you would like a ritual to achieve for each family member.
3. Specify How
the Entire Family Was Affected
What is different about the family as a whole now?
Is there a general numbing of emotions, a lack of connectedness among family
members, a pervasive sadness, an upsurge in conflict, a loss of intimacy, fun,
or hope? Do people no longer do things that they used to do together? Has there
been an increase in activities that have a low degree of sharing—such as
television watching? Are individuals going outside the family more? Does the
family eat together, go to religious services, or play together as much as they
used to?
Again, listing these changes can help you to think
concretely about what you would like a ritual to achieve for your family. You
can't expect everything to change as a result of a ritual, but this list will
focus your thinking and help you to plan a ritual that is relevant to your
needs.
4. Specify the
Existing Public Rituals Available
What existing public rituals are associated with events like the one you're trying to heal? Have you taken advantage of these existing rituals? If your trauma was public and affected others, have you attended memorial services, visited sacred sites, or otherwise participated in organized ceremonies? If not, why not? It is very important to answer this question. Do your family members have attitudes that make it difficult for them to take advantage of the public healing rituals? Such attitudes must be identified and discussed; they can interfere in your own rituals as well as prevent you from getting something out of the public ones.
5. Develop Symbols for the Trauma
Once you have identified the trauma and its effects,
think about ways to symbolize the trauma. A loss can be symbolized by finding
or creating a reminder of what was lost. Often a loss is quite tangible, but
the beauty of symbols is that losses that are actually intangible can be given
tangible reminders. Thus, the loss of illusions of security might be symbolized
by an unlocked door, a picture of a child confidently leaping into a parent's
arms, or a photo of an infant sleeping peacefully. The loss of dreams might be
symbolized by a facsimile of a diploma, a model of a building that was
planned, a clipping about a successful athlete, or a series of pictures of a
child growing up or a couple growing old together.
Most of the healing rituals you design will involve
symbols of what has been lost and probably symbols of change, but they may not
include the idea of transition and transformation. But if you're trying to put
together one major ritual for your family, I urge you to create one that
includes all three components. Your survivor will only profit from an
"ordeal" if she finds it meaningful—not just an arbitrary idea that
you came up with. Placing the healing ritual in the broader framework of
transformation can help to "legitimize" your endeavor.
Symbols for transitions, as the completion of a life
stage, usually include symbols of both the old stage and the new. It is cadets
throwing their old hats into the air, to be replaced with new hats with a
different insignia. A rape survivor might wear two roses, one closed and one
open to symbolize her transition from being withdrawn and fearful back to feeling
more open and uninhibited. It is "something old, something new"—a
traditional symbol of change.
Transformations are symbolized by the old‑new
symbol of the transition and by a symbol of the ordeal of the transformation
itself. The ordeal aspect may be largely symbolic, such as being held
underwater in a baptism, or it may be quite demanding, as in the sweat lodge
ceremony. But it's there to show that the individual has put himself through a
grueling process in order to achieve this transformation. A transformation can
not simply be awarded—it must be earned.
6. Perform Symbolic Actions of Parting with the Past
One of the primary goals of a healing ritual—after
acknowledging the trauma and reexperiencing it—is to accept the fact of the
traumatization, then let it go. For example, the flag used in a military
funeral is folded and given to the next of kin—it is taken out of use and put
away permanently. When you enact rituals of loss and transition, you symbolize
what was lost, then you bury it, destroy it, give it away, or otherwise
indicate that it's no longer part of your life. When you symbolize losing
something during a ritual, you say good‑bye to it. This action helps you
resolve your grief and relinquish the past so that you can be more open to the
future.
7. Perform Symbolic Actions
of Becoming Something New
It's easier to relinquish the past if you have
something to replace it with—or else you'll have little motivation to give it
up. You must feel that you have a future if you're really going to overcome
your traumatization. A symbol can help you recognize and accept the
differences between the past and the future. For example, the family that loses
a member stands together at the funeral—symbolizing the new family that they
have become. They're not just the old family without a member, they're a new
family—a smaller one. If a person loses the use of his legs, a wheelchair may
come to symbolize part of who he is now. It need not be only a reminder of what
he has lost; it can represent the way he gets around now.
Many families find it easier to symbolize what was
lost than to symbolize what lies ahead. Leaving an empty place at the table for
the one who is gone is a powerful symbol of the loss and can mobilize the
sadness. But the family that continues to eat with that empty place at the
table sits too far apart to function as a family. In order to function now,
they must remove the empty place and establish a new seating arrangement. To
do this effectively, they may have to remove a leaf from the table or even buy
a new table.
8. Plan the Ritual as a Family
The plans for the ritual must specify every person's
part in it. Some parts may be much smaller than others, but it's terribly
important that everyone participate. When Mandy placed the flower on her
father's casket, she participated every bit as much as the adult who delivered
the eulogy.
The kinds of healing rituals people create are as varied as the traumas themselves. Some take advantage of existing formal rituals conducted by community institutions such as churches. Others create their own unique rituals with highly defined roles for everyone involved. Still others perform informal rituals that occur spontaneously in settings that tend to remind them of the trauma.
You're likely to pursue your own healing ritual in
the ways to which you are most accustomed—formal or informal, unique or
conventional—and with which you are most comfortable. There is no exact recipe,
no single right way to have a healing ritual. Rather, you must work with the
ingredients you have at hand and put them together in ways that feel
comfortable to you.
Here are some examples of healing rituals that other
people have produced. They range from highly planned and structured ceremonies
to more spontaneous events that only contain a few of the elements I've
identified.
After Lynn was mugged in the big city and became
fearful of going out, some of Lynn's fears and insecurities from early in her
life were unearthed. When she was four years old, she had been taken from the
security of her grandparents' farm to a major city. After this wrenching
experience, she adapted to living without her grandparents. But the memory of
them continued to be a source of security for her, representing the secure
feeling that she would be taken care of and didn't have to live in fear. After
her mugging, Lynn often felt the same feelings of insecurity that she had felt
after leaving the farm.
Lynn made many changes after the mugging that
contributed to her feeling safer. She began to make pilgrimages to her deceased
grandparents' farm and eventually arranged for some of the other young people
who also grew up there to join her. She renewed contacts with old friends and
distant relatives from that early time of her life. During her visits, she
spent long hours communing with the peaceful atmosphere of her childhood
sanctuary. Here, a lot of Lynn's adult healing took place.
Lynn never defined what she was doing as performing
a ritual. From her point of view, her traumatization had simply renewed her
interest in her grandparents, the farm, and that period of her life. Making the
trips and renewing old ties simply felt good and seemed to make sense. It's an
excellent example of how we utilize informal rituals without realizing it.
Catherine was a young girl who was molested at a
preschool. Her parents were very responsive to her fears and took many actions
to help her feel more secure, but she and her parents remained preoccupied with
the incident. Some of the older children were testifying in court against the
accused molester, but despite being a mature four and a half Catherine was
considered to be too young to be a credible witness. Her parents placed her in
therapy, where she acted out the molestation a number of times. Though she
didn't testify, the police did interview her and stayed in contact with her
parents and therapist.
Catherine's difficulty moving beyond the trauma
eventually led her mother to come up with the idea of doing a healing ritual
for her. The policeman who had been talking to Catherine was asked to
participate along with the therapist, the parents, and a social worker. The
ritual consisted of a pretend trial in which the policeman would play the role
of the judge, and Catherine would have the opportunity to testify. Catherine
prepared for the trial by learning what happens in trials and what roles the
judges, attorneys, and witnesses play. When the day of the "trial"
arrived, Catherine approached the situation quite seriously. She knew it was
not a real trial, but it was nevertheless a very important event for her. She
asked to see the policeman's gun, which seemed to satisfy her that he had the
proper authority.
The "trial" went very well; Catherine had
her day in court. She talked openly about the molestation. The
"judge" listened carefully and told her that he would take care of
the "bad man." Catherine was worried that the "bad man"
would be punished too severely, possibly fearing the revenge that molesters
commonly threaten children with in order to keep them silent. The "judge"
assured her that he already knew about this "bad man," that it wasn't
only Catherine's testimony that was going to get him in trouble. The important
thing was that he was going to see to it that the "bad man" did not
hurt any more children. This seemed to satisfy Catherine. Afterward there was
an air of relief, and she made greater progress in letting go of the
traumatization.
This example contains the standard elements of a
healing ritual. The power of the symbols of justice are worth noting. This
four‑and‑a‑half‑year‑old girl had already learned
that policemen carry real guns as a symbol of their power. It's also noteworthy
that this ritual was created almost entirely by the mother, though it required
the participation of a number of outside "experts." This mother knew
her daughter better than anyone else and understood what she needed in order to
bring some closure to the trauma. Catherine continued to have to deal with
what had happened to her, but her preoccupation with it changed after the
"trial." It became a part of her past and no longer her whole life.
Karen, as an eight‑year‑old, lost her
mother to an accidental death. Her father was a hardy person who was able to
carry the family through the months following the death. Karen and Karen's
younger brother busily pursued many activities with him in which he filled the
role of their mother. But Karen's father discovered that there were some
activities in which he simply could not replace their mother. One of these was
Valentine's Day, when Karen frequently said that her mother used to make
Valentine cards for her. Karen's father felt at a loss until he came up with
the idea of having the family make a Valentine card and wreath and place it on
the grave. Karen's father discovered that this ritual had a beneficial effect on
the entire family, including himself.
This is just a small example of how we can use
symbols, rituals, and memorials to help us get past traumatization. When
someone dies, life goes on for the survivors. But periodically, we encounter
reminders that revive our feelings of loss, especially holidays and
anniversaries. It's usually necessary to memorialize the loss on these days
before we can experience them without being brought down by our memories. The
stories of Catherine and Karen highlight the power of rituals to put a trauma
to rest, "achieving closure." Rituals are especially important with
children since they generally need to be able to perform actions in order to
achieve closure. (Indeed therapy with children generally involves less talk and
more action than therapy with adults.)
These rituals are fairly unstructured; not even the
mock trial followed the rigid form we usually associate with rituals. The
following structured ritual was specifically designed by the participants in
order to get over a trauma.
Peter and Janice had been married for nearly
fourteen years and had four children. Peter was a successful professional and a
good provider. When they married, Janice had dropped out of law school in order
to support Peter while he finished graduate school. She had hoped to return to
school after Peter graduated and was working, but like many wives, she shelved
the idea after she started having children. She didn't have great regrets about
this since she found considerable satisfaction in being a homemaker.
After fourteen years, Janice discovered that Peter
had been having affairs. She was traumatized by her discovery and felt that her
sacrifices and her years of marriage had been wasted.
They entered marital therapy. Peter was contrite and
acknowledged that he had hurt Janice and owed her. Still, their future as a
couple was in doubt for some time. Eventually, Janice announced her desire to
resume her schooling and finish her law degree. Peter showed his sincere desire
to make up for what he'd done by cutting back to work part-time so that he
could stay home with the children while Janice studied and attended classes.
Within two years, Janice completed her degree and passed the bar. The family
went on several trips together, and things seemed to be much better. But the
trauma was not yet closed for Janice. She continued to find it difficult to be
close to Peter, and she still felt the first fourteen years of their marriage
had been ruined. She said she felt as though she would like to be divorced and
married all over again so that they could start over with a "clean
slate."
Janice didn't really want to put herself and her
children through a divorce, but she did feel the need for some way to bury the
past and start anew. Their therapist suggested creating a ceremony that might
symbolize this transition without requiring the upheaval of a divorce. Janice
enthusiastically responded to the suggestion, and Peter was willing, though
initially he didn't think it would be any big deal. But as they decided what to
do and then prepared for it, Peter discovered it was taking on a lot of
importance for him as well. He ended up going to even greater lengths than
Janice to find the appropriate symbols to include in the ceremony.
On the day of the ritual, Peter and Janice and their
therapist went to the nearby shore of a lake. They first made a fire out of
several things that Peter had brought, including an invitation to their
wedding, several wedding pictures, and a broken frame containing the vows they
had written for the wedding. The frame had been smashed by Janice during one of
their fights following the discovery of the affairs. Interestingly, Peter had
picked up the broken frame and saved it. After setting these things on fire,
they kissed and each made a brief speech. Next they walked over to the water
and threw their wedding bands into the lake (ouch). Again, they each made a
brief speech about getting rid of the past and starting anew. They kissed,
longer this time. They started holding hands as they walked and began acting
downright giddy. Finally, they walked to a Dumpster and Peter placed a fancy
jacket where any interested person could retrieve it. He had worn the jacket on
his excursions with other women, and Janice was particularly pleased that he
was getting rid of it.
Losses can't be relinquished until a certain amount
of mourning has been done. A ritual can act as a catalyst to bring the mourning
to the surface and create the opportunity for people to share in the
experience. Peter had been growing sadder and sadder as the ceremony
approached, and the prospect of throwing away their wedding bands made him feel
as if he really had wasted those fourteen years. For the first time, he had
begun to understand how Janice felt. And yet actually throwing away the bands
proved to be very easy for both of them. It didn't make them sad—it released
them from sadness.
By the time the ritual was over, Janice and Peter
both felt unburdened. Indeed, Janice relinquished her preoccupation with
Peter's broken vows. This powerful example of "cleaning the slate"
with a ritual didn't occur until two years of work had been done, in which
Peter changed his cheating ways, they both learned to communicate better, they
processed what had happened, and Peter made major changes in his career to
help Janice finish school.
Rituals are not magic—they can't fix everything in a
single golden moment. But they can be
a sort of peak experience in the larger process of recovery, which includes
examining and processing the trauma, mourning the losses, dealing with
symptoms, rebuilding a damaged sense of self, and rejoining society.